Post 7

STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS UPSET

how can some people even bear to ignore or give cold shoulders to people completely who were once so close to them? Doing silly things together, had fun together, laugh together, stress together and everything else, are all of these just for show? Or who are you trying to fool? How can you even bear to see them so upset to the limit whereby things are already really getting out of hand? planning to just let time fade off things and then act like nothing ever happened again and out to hurt again? Ridiculous. I actually can't believe how can people still have time for all of these? Srsly? Yes maybe I'm wrong to say this cause I'm only saying all of these at only one's perspective but come on if things are not being voiced out, how can others know how you feel and to understand?

Till the next...........

Post 6

People generally are the scariest, complicated, basically messed up. I don't even know how else can I describe them anymore. Someone that you initially thought is the the nicest person ever but ended up with the scariest and the most evil thoughts. Like how can be so interchangeable? like seriously? isn't it tiring? like having to say means things and still have to ensure that yourself still look good in front of people like the nicest people. Trying so hard to be like that, spending almost half of your life dealing with problems and being fake. Will you be happy? or do people just like drama like that?

Random thoughts.........

Post 5

It's kinda scary how people are behaving nowadays or is it just those typical poly problems? I got no idea. But it's really frightening on how people that you thought were your friends, people that are in your comfort zone but ended up being people that arent really your friends from the start or maybe things happened and too many things changed, being accumulated till today. It was a really bad day. I can't even emphasize anymore on how bad it can be. & tbh i've encountered situations like this before but never once so damn extreme that it's scaring the hell out of me. It actually became like an eye-opener for me of this is actually the bad side of humanity and it's very bad, that very is already an understatement for how bad it is. I can't believe like things could actually turn out this way. Though it's not concerning THAT much but somehow it is and I'm equally affected by it. It's scary how people can be so cold-hearted and bear to see someone suffer like crazy, I definitely know how it feels cause i've been through it. This is getting so much on my nerve snd that it's sucking up all of my energy and brain juice just for this. Like are you kidding me? Of course, these are not just all that I want to say or rather rant but  as I'm not really good with words, I tried to put it in words and typed it out and it feels actually a little better this way. I just want to say that I'm taking no sides as well.

Definitely one damn heavy post but till the next post! (Hoping of something happy)

Post 4

First day of school ytd was fine. As per normal. So far no negative vibes or drama which is a good thing and I hope it will remain for long srsly. And soon enough, poly will be over in a blink of an eye so why not just enjoy and go through it smoothly.  Wanted to share an image but it doesnt allow me to damn will update agn to tonight or sth if I have the time.

Second day of school, kinda chill and interesting first lesson of this module called "Distribution & Transportation". Everything went well, new facesnew faci and new module. Things will get even better.

Till then! x

Post 3

I always feel bad for rejecting people. Be it people asking me to buy something from them or people asking me out to somewhere or people offering me their help in something. I feel like I'm rejecting their kindness although their ultimate motive may be for their own good or cause they are just making use of me. I just feel bad like I shouldn't reject them and just say yes although I might land myself in trouble. If only I am someone who is less soft-hearted then I won't be feeling so much about it.

However, have a good day ahead everyone! x

Post 2

have been observing this and came across a post on the net..... that

guys who are already attached, they no longer put their eyes on any other girls except their own girl. Not even a single glance, or maybe yes but they probably have no thoughts of knowing them better, getting closer to them or even interacting much. Some people may think that how am I to prove that but well, all of these are based on what I observed. & Some people may think that this is nothing but another selfish act towards the other half but I'm just saying that this actually amazes me. Hands down to guys like this even still exist in this entire space. 

Midnight thoughts, till then! x 

Post 1

Finally I got my macbook "tab" button fixed at Funan DigitaLife Mall without having to pay a single cent, I was so shocked, that guy's really nice. After, I got a new macbook cover to protect my laptop from getting "hurt". Now it looks like a brand new macbook, anyone interested? KIDDING. Why would I sell something I invested so much money in. 

That aside, school's reopening in another few more days next Monday. Totally dreading it but well, I'm letting things flow naturally and probably not to expect anything much. Only looking forward to this Dec where i'll be heading to Japan, Hokkaido. When it will be snowing by then. Yay!!! Finally get to experience snow after 18 years. But yes, I'm blessed for that and definitely contented way more than enough for this. Tbh, have been going through quite a lot in the past and actually hoping that things will go on smoothly for god knows how long? Like i said, let's not expect anything. 

Till the next! x