Post 19

Realizing this trend whenever I get real comfortable with the people around me I tends to make them feel uncomfortable, offend or upset them......... they cannot really handle it or cannot accept it when I start being myself like it's only me when I can speak my mind without filtering those words through my brain, saying mean things to them when I don't mean it at all, doing embarassing things in front of them without the need of worrying that they may judge you for they have never seen this side of you previously, being straightforward w them about your opinions about every single thing and that's only because you have already allowed them into your comfort zone and that you foresee this is the friendship that  you will want to cherish and keep. I feel relieved whenever I can behave that way towards the people around me. However, when you gets too comfortable, you tends to cross the line and unknowingly push them to their limit they have with you and your actions towards them. does that mean that there's always a certain limit to you being comfortable with the people that you can finally open yourself up to? or maybe i'm wrong.......... 

Post 18

I miss feeling wanted
I miss feeling important
I miss being remembered 
I miss being happy effortlessly
I miss being around real people
I miss how people cared for one another genuinely
I miss having no competition between people 
I miss positive consistency and assurance
I miss how thing used to be so simple
I miss feeling secured

I just want to be myself. 

Post 17

"I discovered the difference in feelings and commitments. I’ve never gone for the person who makes my heart flutter or my head spin. I’ve chosen the people who were committed to choosing me, dedicated to finding something to adore even on the ugliest days.

I no longer fear the day someone who swore I was their universe can no longer see the stars in my eyes as long as they still choose to look until they find them again." - chevonne cheng 

Just wanna share with you something that should be done right.